I am creating myself as a living god/superhero/star of my movie every day. That means the confidence that I mock up, is greater than I feel somedays, I do it anyway. The actions I endeavor to take are beyond the mundane and normal self I may have been yesterday, I take those actions anyway. The words I speak and the ideas I communicate are the best and most life affirming/situation changing, that I can muster even though they may be scary or confronting. 

I may feel like shit now, but I know that this is my game. Avatarism can be a religion/path/process of self cultured meta-programming towards the goal of action/satisfaction. I incite a victorious cycle, even when my shadow self says “give up,” “not worthy,” or “hide.” Meta-programming is a skill that can be learned. Robert Anton Wilson wrote that self programming will become more and more important in this century as access to information increases. If we can know ourselves well, we can track our degenerate programming in real time, and combat systemic black magic with positive and creative memes. It can be done. 

Temple Grandin, the famous autistic designer and lecturer was unable to touch others and hugging gave her intense emotional pain. She used her creativity to develop a way to experience the calming feeling of a hug without the human contact that disturbed her. She built a hugging machine out of wood to “hug,” her. Her creative and physical solution to an emotional problem was the catalyst that brought her more into the world and allowed her to bring her genius and wisdom to the cattle industry in which she later revolutionized, and the lecture circuit which she now excels in. Like Temple Grandin, how can we design a system to hug/comfort/or support us in our up-leveling, and quest for our highest vision for ourselves.

“I inspire myself first and then set my sights on the rest of my tribe and world.”

-iRev. Alexander Polinsky

I realize I am human. Part of the organic makeup of this universe. I am highly specialized for thought, action, and reaction. I am not “THE god,” just one of the many living manifestations of the godhead in action on this platform. I am capable of intense goodness and great evil. I must be in accord with my prime directive if I want to keep my head and do good in the world. 

I aim to be excellent in my actions and reactions, I measure, I stop, look, and listen to the moment I am about to create and use my super awesomeness instead of my reactionary blowhard. This is how I keep myself free of actions that need apology. And, I am not perfect.

If you are in a relationship and you love with a fierce and dedicated heart as I do, you may know what problems can come up. If there is misunderstanding, imbalance, or infidelity, then mistrust can lead to a special kind of emotional stress. The danger feeling, the “not friend,” feeling, dire and painful feelings come up. Sit with them for a moment and see what you are creating, what is real, and what is false. One of the hardest things about loving, is letting go of judgement. In this brave new world of many choices, we are taught by the media that the newest thing, the latest fad, or the new person might be better than what we have now. But every new technology, fad, or person brings a whole new universe of needs, learning curves, and curve balls. 

I understand that my relationship is so important to me that I feel sometimes I could kill whomever gets in the way. No one is gonna take her from me! This is where my ethics come in and save me from taking revenge on the other man. I have the cognitive ability to assess the weakness in the offending body and destroy him with a counter strike of such tactical perfection that he wouldn’t know what hit him. The destruction of his business, his family life, his character, and his inevitable deportation from the country. WHOA! I am a powerfully dark wizard if I set my mind to it. 

BREATHE!

If my lover wants to leave me, cheat, or be with someone else, I have to understand that is her choice, her adventure. I have to confront that it might be the end of our relationship, or the lesson that brings us closer.  As Dan Levitt used to say, I can’t have the person who loves me tell me no. We must allow our lovers and friends their path to their own bliss and up-leveling. I will not give into revenge or retribution unless my life is threatened. I will take myself out for ice cream instead. I will up-level my skill set to increase my own magnetism instead of worrying about what may happen. I refuse to live in uncertainty and pain. 

Be kind to yourself and make friends with your pain. Smooth the frayed edges with actions of kindness, fierce introspection, and a spirit good natured inflexibility when it comes to your happiness.

I am a soldier for the cause of my personal truth. I am the Knight of air, on a flying horse, high above the mundane problems of men. I am a living god, conscious of my power, able to re-program myself, and change my brain. I am. I breathe. I love. I let go.

Do not doubt your power to re-program the parts of your bio-computer that malfunction or do not serve your highest vision of yourself. Take care in the fermentation of your character, build it well, and in the final judgement, we will feel satisfied and ready for the next adventure.

Love,

iRev. Alexander Polinsky